I ever fall in love twice in my life. First during my campus life, and second,
after finish all my studies, about 2 years ago. It’s not surprised why those can’t work. They’re actually women. As myself. But I’m not regret it at all because, it taught me a lot of thing. Patient, Sadness, Tears, Stupidity, Excitement, Desperation, and a lot more. Those even lead me for doing a few stupid things too. Really. But I don’t want such things happen. I’d never had such physical relationship with woman too. I swear. Seriously. But, I still hardly fall in love with men around me though. I don’t have many single guys friend. A man try to propose me once, but maybe too long to wait my decision, he’s gone. Good because if he’s still waiting, he might get my word maybe in 2-3 years from now. And there’s a man too, married, but no way he could fall in love with me because I’m not more than a toy. And there’s someone too, a good friend of mine, but he’s not more than a friend-to-share-all-kind-of-feeling. See, that’s all. I don’t know what else can I do because I am just I am. But, that doesn’t means I don’t like guys. I’m a woman, an adult. So I know what really can please me. So now, I live as usual, work, home, sleep, eat, and work. I have a few plans after this:

- Quit job, travelling and experiences for other life.
- Quit job, back to family.
- Give all my money to my family, and ‘gone’.

These are not plan for today, but maybe 2-3 months after this, or someday around this year. Sounds like give up already but, I don’t know what else to do.

Au revoir !